so long since i am at home at this time on a sunday afternoon..its sunday!! i dun even believe it, not to say i m use to it..i m trying...dunno to be happy or sad thou...went for my new baby cousin full-month buffet this morning...so many new baby cousins suddenly..and their english names are super difficult to rmb...my cousin told mi, she wont need to ans qns in class in future coz even the teacher wont kw how to pronounce it...anw didt manage to take photos of the baby coz she didt even open her eyes at all when i m there...but she's a cute pretty little gal...

i hate sleepless night n tears...it jus dun feel good to be tired and no matt how hard u try u jus cant fall aslp, worst-crying...its reli horrible...haven been eating much as well...nth seem to taste nice to mi and i feel very uncomfortable after eating...i wonder if i had food poisoning coz i vomit out almost everything tat i hav eaten..but they told mi its my "heart" problem...
something came to mi last night when i tt of the both of us...this 2 yrs plus of relationship feels like a dream that i woven myself...i tt as long as we love each other, everything i did is worthwhile...is it? everything, everywhere and anything reminds mi of him...i did wonder, isit i did a bad job as a gf or he jus didt able to commit himself in our relationship...if he reli love mi? or he did jus for de sake of doing it? to him, isit frenz r forever n gf r watever? many many qns and many many things i feel like explaining to him...but no one can clear all my doubts and there's jus nth i can do...jia you le, yanmei...walk out of this n believe there's better tml...somehow i will be able to get thru rite? anw thanks alot of being there, my frenz...