Because of friend like U, i make it this far...

소녀시대

wish.es

Take me away on a plane~

I wanna travel~

A promise to have a overseas christmas one day,

someday i will~ ^^

For now, lets me get back to school, back to books, projects & Exams

Blessed me with good lucks please~

当学生真的好吗？

G, PG, NC16, M18 & now R21!!!

29 October 2010; 二十一岁了！

These 21st of growing up, I have learn & experience many things and gain many things...Be it happiness, sadness, anger or tears, hopeful or hurtful, smooth or rough, these make me stronger and braver to face the future challenges…
And I am really thankful for people that have always been with me, family who are always my supporting pillars and friends who I know they will be there no matter rain or shine xD

Family- my best daddy and mummy and that silly brother;
Thank you for their upbringing, their time, their efforts, their support and their love! They are the ones that I can’t survive without! Coz I know no matter what had happened, rain or shine, they are the ones that will always be by my side…HUGZ! They are the ones who make me who I am today!

Si.Hua.Mei.Hui;

This friendship, our bonds and connections are proofs that how important they are to me! Thank you for being there, for sharing my joy and tears, for fighting thru every exams/difficulties, for celebrating every happiness and for creating those silly memories together! You guys never know how grateful I am to have ur! I can’t and never dare to imagine, how life will be like without ur..Thanks for helping my 21st celebration, thanks for the touching messages & present and thanks for the surprise! xD Of coz I didn’t forget to thank Alex too! Thanks for the venue, the help, the card/present and always being caring! Lets continue to create more silly yet wonderful memories together!

Cscc darlings!

From the juniors to my batch to the seniors, thank you for all the wishes and memories we had together! Thanks for all the things that I learned from ur, thanks for always willing to listen to me and thanks for all the things that I have yet to have chance to thank ur!

Joining Cscc in my poly days is one of the best things I ever did! Starting from FO camp to the rest of the countless events/camps to the boring meeting to those hangouts and to now MeMoRiEs! In cscc, I gain Friends- really True Friends cum Soulmate…因为有你们，我好幸福！Those moments of fun and laughter we had, those moments of getting tired and grumpy and many many more moments we had together, lets continue to create them! Thou now that we have all graduated and are fighting for our future, let’s not forget each other and meet up often still! Lets grow OLD together! Xoxo

And to all my ex-colleagues, Junxian, Aloy and the rest who have wished me! Thank you for all your wishes and care! Thanks for bringing joy to me during my days in GE, Thanks for the help I got from ur in those days and thanks for still remembering me! =D

Heartfelt thank U for all those who came for my celebrations, thanks for taking out time and thanks for the lovely cards/presents! I Love ur! xD

And this year,
I wish...
that my family and friends will remain happy and healthy,
that life will be a little easier for my family and friends,
that I will be stronger & braver to face the upcoming challenges,
that ... i wish... xD

Star Light, Star Bright, first time i see tonight...

Smiled when i looked up and saw a sky with little twinkling stars...

Not tat many, mayb just a few dim ones...

But its enough to make my night beautiful x)

~And tonight, i made a little Wish w those stars~

~pls come true~

Just as Empty as it is...

大家都认定坚强，开朗的我，
好小心翼翼的不要被任何人发现
其实我不是...

好好的已经把它藏起来，用锁头锁上了，
偏偏切在我不知不觉，毫无准备时又突然出现,
我，好无奈...

我有时会傻笑的希望会有那么一的人，
在我无助，慌张，伤心，心里的警铃响起时，
出现在我身边，给与我安慰的那个人...
是傻瓜，是白吃，还是笨蛋，我自己也不知道...

当我决定要一个人时，为什么又要让我觉得害怕，寂寞呢？

When I disappeared...

Finally back...
It's a short and simple one..But thats more than enough!
I went for a short trip to KL with my Mum and her friends for this "弟子规" talk...I guess many dun even know what that it right? Go n find out! ;) Anyway, its was a fruitful trip with lots of things learnt...I will be a better person, at least i can try~

I did a little trip back to my grandma's place as well, its a small kampong area in malaysia...Peaceful and quiet stay over the weekend...Also, lots of catch-ups with my grandma and cousins...At that moment, i thought it's just so nice to be at a place where no troubles find you...

One of my cousins sugguested for a getaway! Tata! We joined this tour package to go to Port Dickson & Klang & KL...Actually, I know nth about the trip...I just followed! x) A nice simple sweet holidays with my cousins and a bus of uncles & aunties! The beach was awesome [and rather dirty actually =x], the fresh air of the farms, the sounds of buzzing insects, the wonder of blinking stars, all sort of factories/"attractions" visiting and of coz the best part of travelling-FOOD!

Not a grand holiday, yet a heartwarming one - "The 1st Trip with my 5 cousins"

She was and will still be beautiful...

The news came so sudden that it left me stunned before tears took over me..

Life's so fragile, it took them away any moment without u knowing it...

Cscc, was the place that i always met her...I recalled how crazy and joyful she was during camp and how happy her "hello" was when we went back as a senior...She was always so cheerful...

Rest in peace, Cindy...Continue to shine wherever you are...You will always be loved and remembered by all of us...

Among all, no one can feel as painful as the family of Cindy & Moonkian...This loss; Its not going to be easy on him/them; the toughest, darkest period to go thru..Encouraging words are the only thing we can do for him now...There will be times that u will think of giving up, times when you can't breathe anymore, times when you think life's so unfair and times when nothing else matters anymore...But you got to remember that there's always your friends and family around if you fall...Got to be strong and live on, for her...

We love you as much as we love her.

It's a long one...

Actually i tried to understand it all...
Den again, i got confused...
Things happen for a reason;
but often we didt realised the meaning behind it or sometimes we choose to ignore it...

Life's book is hard to understand;
why couldst thou not remain at school?
____________________________________________________________________________________

Managed to completed some expired-drama, like finally!
its NICEeeee to stay at home just to watch all these x)
Thou i am terrible at controlling my emotions!
I cried, I laughed and I got all mad tgt with the story;
sometimes i purely feels sad/happy for the actors while there were times when i know the pain/joy of that person for that situation...
Interesting storyline really keeps my mind working!
Drama is part of my life ^^
but thinking thinking thinking makes me a panda soon! tsk tsk~

~听hear 说me~
爱情跟梦想都是很奇妙的事情，

不用听，不用说，也不用被翻译，就能感受到它。 ~Let your heart listens~

~Au revoir Taipei~
恋爱的感觉，有时候，就像一杯咖啡、一首爵士乐或是一本书，

熟悉却又动人，它悄悄地来到身边，让寂寞的心跳开始有了温度

What happen when a 5 meets a 10? Inception got me all confused!

~下一站，幸福~

原来 爱情从来没有离开过，只是我记得，你忘了。

~有人總是下錯站，坐過頭，不是錯失了窗外風景，就是錯過了身旁的人
沒有人知道，能陪自己坐到終點站的人，究竟會是誰。

~相信说来容易，但却一点也不简单。往往隐瞒着对方是为了他，因为爱他而说谎，但也是这样而伤害了彼此。

It's a wonderful story but a painful and sad one as well~

Often, we do things unwillingly when our environment forces us to do so..yet those things were done just to protect our loved ones...
No matter what it is and where it is, so long it's time together; its happiness!~

My best frenz turns 21!

Sweet 21st Birthday Seowhui!

It's your day finally!
~23July2010~

岁月不留人。时间过得真快！

来看看当年的我们吧！
不用担心，这里的你都是美的，不美的我们自己知道就好！哈哈！

Our first neoprint card ba! *arrow up*
Hundreds of neoprint collection and Sihuameihui Photos! *arrow down*


这就是我的好朋友,
At the age of 20:

5 years ago,
At the age of 16:

13 years ago,
At the age of 8:

And this is 20 years ago!

Still as cute as ever!

All the best and best of the best wishes to her!
Have a great day today as well as for the years ahead!
Jiayou jiayou jiayou!
haha Dun worry, from this yr onwards, every yr there will only be MAX 2 big candles and a small candle on ur cake!
Stay Forever 21! lovesss~

希望你喜欢我送你的礼物, even thou it might not be the best and prefect one! But thats the memories of us growing up tgt!
*Dont scold mi for those unglam photos! =x*

永远有多远

The cruelty of you, me and them~

Finally make up my mind to leave my current job...Thou its sudden but i hope its a right choice...
Many things to clear, many to handover and many left unsaid...虽然很不舍，但我还是选了离开。

Now, I am making changes to my intended decisions, i m taking a risk..A risk that i myself also unsure about...

I am overloaded. Too many uncertainties, too many second-thoughts, too many "too many"...my heart and mind no longer work at the same pace..

Please dun let me fall now...let it stand tall!

Short, Simple and Super!

Rush, lost and ask before we finally made our way up to the "chui chui" coach! The start off of our Sunway/KL journey...吃喝玩乐 is what we are up to, not forgetting the walking, under-the-rain-running, sliding, rollarcoastering and screaming! x)

High on sugar when we had our very 1st meal in KL, the planta prata with sugar-ful milo/tea! Train & old school buss our way to Sunway! It look exactly like how it is on the website! Wooo...Check in cosy hotel room b4 we go Simply Penang! Spice, Chili, Curry Chicken! Mega Pyramid Shopping Mall~ walk, shop, eat, walk, shop and EAT! Big "金盆" ramen and it's time to zouk zouk! (Sg is still the best!) =)

Own healthy yummy Cheese Ham & Tuna Sandwiches Breakfast before we got ready for a "Soggy, Screaming and Scary" day @ the Sunway Lagoon Theme Park...1) Water park! Few types of rides and end off w this amazing headfirst slides that Seowhui cant slide far! *Bravo* 2) Amusement Park! Giddy spell teacups! Pirate Ship that scare those guys off! *evil smile* Rollarcoaster with 3 combo hits! Fight for seats and see whose the wettest with the Colorado Splash! *Wet & Wild* 3) Extreme park & wildlife 4) Scream park with the theme of Night at the Museum! and i hate this so much! Pay to get scare! who do tat? =x

Den we Run, Ran, Run under the Rain! Victory is ours when we finally reached the bag locker location!
I love that moment! Unforgettable!

First in our 20+ years of life that we walked thru a crowded shopping mall wet, dripping and cold! *thumbs up* Dinner @ the road side stalls with a great experience with this Lady @ this unique, outstanding TEA shop along a street fill with pubs/clubs! Loves the "lok lok" and i dislike pillow fights coz i never win! humpf!

Cup noodle-ing with HL milk and we set off to KL on this brake-go-brake-go BUS...Chinatown, Berjaya Sq, Sungei Wang and Pavilion! Walk, Search, Find, Shop and EAT! special kind of food found and each of us at least gain 1kg that day! Tired and heaty, we had massage and drinking! Drinking below our hotel in sleeping attire! Best of the Best! =)

Tata! Holidays always pass fast! Jus a blink of an eye, its the end of our 4D4N malaysia trip...

Lots of Fun and Laughter, Screaming and Fighting, Food-ing and Drinking & of coz Enjoying!

lovessss =D

more more more holiday plssss~ x))

Start counting down~

Take a break.
3 more days! =)

Smile x)))

After all the battle with work, "school" and many others, finally its time to Enjoy! may not be a prefect one but who cares~ lets jus have fun! =)))

I am like a happy kid when it comes to holiday! bring me anywhere! i will follow...x)))

Change. The only constant.

Life sometimes gets so bogged down in the details,
i forget i'm living in it.

Pop a question in my mind.
no answer.
Ask again inside your heart.
it took mi away.

Nothing stays.
nothing's unchange.
Day after day, just to get thru it.
But just a little while,
Can i paused?

Drained...

Trying to focus,
to go unnoticed
but the harder i try to stay dry, It rains
and i can't do it ,
no they see through it~

泪了, of wearing that plastic masks day after day.
Pls hide me somewhere, not exposed~

~So sorry for the grumpiness, it will be over soon~

Boos~

ifeltterribletoday.

ialmostcriedtoday.

For whatever reason it may be, i hope it goes away soon... =(

Back on Tues, my colleagues asked each of us to describe Ourselves...
Happy or sad, when it came to my turn, before words could come out from my mouth, one of them answered on my behalf, "Sotong".

lists to fill up:
Cheerful. My smile appear even for the smallest blessed thing,
Sociable. My hands spread out for everyone that walked pass,
Chatty. My voice travel miles away even for the driest conversation,
Emotional. My tears fall for the slightest reason,
Timid. My fear overpower me for the faintest "horror",
Blur. My madness go haywire for the least complicated thing.

Above all, are mentioned by my colleagues.
n that's so me.
sometimes, I felt transparent. =x


On a lighter note, i spent a peaceful weekend in Malaysia. =)

Not forgetting the purpose of that trip back.

Happy Birthday to Grandma!

That's my 2 youngest Cousins. Yes, they are still my Cousins!

That's her FIRST great-grandson! *he's going to have a brother/sister soon* =D
Tata! Includes my grandma, her children & daughter/son-in-laws, her grandchildren and her great-grand son!

Absent: 3 grandchildren

Right now, i just want to go to bed,
lay on my pillow, hug my bolster,
and go to sleep, maybe never wake up.
Until i get my thoughts back on path again~

As innocent as he can be

Someone asked me this little innocent qns today,

"How is it like to grow up? Will i forget her when i grow up?"

I paused before i reassured him. "You won't", couldnt really believe this comes from a 8 yrs old kid.

N i happen to come across this:

~It's pretty much impossible to forget someone

who was once the reason for the smile on ur face~

=D

Whatever will be, will be...

When I was just a little girl
I asked my mother, what will I be
Will I be pretty, will I be rich
Here's what she said to me.

Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.

Have your heard this b4? Have your ever wonder?

Big/small Decision lie in front of me...

It's the 2nd time i m offer to convert into a perm staff. The 1st was Event management, this time it is CPF requisition team...I rejected both...Both on the same reason..I think i wan to go back to sch, so i cant take up a perm job at this point of time...I hope i make the right choice...

Work has been bad. Following, my health.

Up and down and up again...

I love it when we gathered. Things are simple yet its sweet in its own little way...Lots n lots of chit-chat session- non stop ones...Friends are often neglected bcoz of busy schedules..I hope, i wish, we wouldnt fall into that category...

n Someone's right! I am in a total mess...Got to try real hard to put bits and pieces back into their position...the inner me needs a restructure, a change, and a confirmation...Jiayous!

Best of Best Gatherings...

Best part of life is the gathering of "old" friends!

Went back FOC 10/11 w my batch of ppl!

We walked a few km, we chatted for hours, we disturbed the GLs/campers and we have LOTS of fun together!

Hardly able to believe that we trusted the Tarot cards, non-sleep for > 24 hours, talked for 8 hours and back in Sp after a yr of graduation.

Alot of things we didt knew, until we sat down and talked about it...

Alot of times we missed, until we reli sat down and shared..

Those are the moments that i m sure everyone treasure as we grow up. =D

*These are the days, my friends

We know they never end....*

Unpredictable as it can be...

It's real. Fatal and as scary as u can think; i have seen.

Life's so unpredictable.

One moment like this, another become that.

Beneath that smile, the fear still remains. i hope i forgets.

Thank you so much for the hugz

i supposed tat wat i need most now.

小小的战斗力可以繁衍几个枪
小小的一颗心可以承载多少痛
小小的这双手可以握住什么花

小小的鞋却不能够 小心地向前走

Something not supposed to...

Today was a bad day.

Confused.
Many thoughts are going thru. I would be happy if i could take a short break. Away from all the busy/rushing life of everyday.

Gloomy.
It rained heavily the whole of today. The dark sky, the grey clouds, the pokerfaced colleagues.

Cried.
Coz its one of my best colleague's farewell today. I have lost another lunch kakis, another guy in the office.

Sad.
Coz another is leaving in a month's time. I supposed to leave b4 everyone. but i m still around w many leaving. What's next?

Horrific.
A car-hit-ppl accident happened right in front of me. Shocked. Speedless. Blank. Talked. Feared. Softed. 乱。

Of all,
A Big hug.
Thats something i need now. The best solution to everything.

Overdue Holiday!

Finally, our HOLIDAY!

Wonderful 5days 4nights with 7 incredible frenz @ Bangkok! Our objectives: Fly, walk, shop, boat, EAT, rest, enjoy & HAVE FUN!

7 great people: Jj, Zh, Edric, Jason, Kevin, Kristie & mi...
We started off from Changi Airport to Surarnabhumi Airport to Bioyoke Boutique to Platinum Mall to Bioyoke Sky Rooftop. Enjoying every minute from catching the plane with our BIG/small luggages to searching for our missing transfer-Van to the First bite of thai cuisine to Massaging to Checking-in our pink hotel rooms to a wonderful dinner buffet with that great night view of bbk!

2nd Day was a SS day! Sightseeing w Shopping!
Imagine our "WOW" faces as we entered Siam Paragon! None of us even bother to walk into any shops! After a 2serving/ per person Lunch (they should know wat it mean), we went to the Siam Ocean World with lots of fish-watching & legs-fishing! =D Shop @ MBK, Dinner at Suan Lam Night Market and many more shopping there too!

Exciting Day 3 started off with a great Black Canyon Coffee Breakfast before we marched off to our 1st destination- Golden Mount. A long way up those stairs accompany by those ringing bells, do we get more blessing if we climb higher? =x On our way to the next destination, we had the Coconut Ice-Cream which Kevin strongly recommended. Finally, arrived at the Great Swing where everyone really squeezed hard to have a photo with it! Kena cheated up a Tuk Tuk and we alighted at the harbour, ready for the boat ride down the river...Find our way to Chinatown where we had at least 4 meals there including food like Dim Sum, Shark Fin & Bird Nest! At night, ww experienced the lifestyle at Patpong/Si Lom before we headed back to hotel sweet hotel! Everyone squeezed again at jj/zh room for that night! Cards, games, talks, stories and its good nights! A non-sleep yet sweet good night!

Shine and Rise! A whole day at the Chachuchak Weekend Market where we shop like there's no tml! Everyone got good bargains! Well Satisfied! Had a good Jap dinner before we went for a tiny chilling! Supperbed club rejected us! Every single one KO completely that night. Tired but a wide big Smile was on everyone's face! n did i mentioned that i LOVE their skytrain "card"!!!

A finally super last minute shopping at Platinum! A nice & powerful shopping with Kristie! I found another shopping kakis! At the airport, we did another stun! We almost missed our Flight! Run, Ran, Run! Settled. Take off. Landed. Tata! back home once again! Let's some photos do the talking:

Dinner @ Bioyoke Sky

Cold~~
Happy Birthday to Zhenhui!
~Siam Ocean World~
N My goodies!!! =D

Great Companions make this trip filled up with Joy, Laughter, Fun & make it Successful! Millions of heartfelt Thank-you! i m glad! Looking forward to the next one! lalala~ =D

新年快乐！

Here i m to wish everyone a very HAPPY Lunar New Year! Hope u guys r having great fun in this long holiday!!!

I m @ my gma's house in Malaysia! It is always great to come back here, in the Kampong...We play n play like there's no tml! Especially the FIREWORKS! haha they are my favourites!

Once again, a happy lunar new year to all! Get more hongbao, enjoy more great goodies and gamble till drop! haha Also, hope u guys had a great Valentine day as well! =D

It will be a beautiful day!

Shhh, I m in office now! Suppose to be busy buried under my tat piles of work! But work nv end! How come? Haha so I decided to eat a little bit of snake! Nmh will laugh when she read this! =X

Weekend is coming! I hope its a good one..this weekend I m going to Complete my that super tiring painting, Shopping and the planning part of pre-holiday! Woo..

learn not to get affected by external things! I wanna make my day a good one! =D

BIG change in level 13...

I told someone that i m going to blog abt this!

Its the first time i cried in my office...not bcoz i was sad..its becoz i got so nervous after shouting back at one of my colleague...She wasnt very bad type, n she's one of my lunch kakis...But she's quite famous for "lazyness" & "bad-talking"...Lazyness refer to her always coming out w all type of excuses to run away from getting under the SUN! goodness! Bad-talking refer to whenever she wanna ask for favour from others, she dont say it in a nice way...she uses phrases like " AH, u cannot help me ar, i very busy!?" And the way n tone that she used is always very straight and hurting ba...Alot of us "experience" it, alot confronted her and alot tried telling her...but she's still de same...haha When i jus started getting all those bullets from her, i tt mayb its ok until ytd...I am not one that loses my cool easily, so can u imagine how bad the situation was? N i guess she was so stunned when i yell back at her! best part, my supervisor showed me a "thumbs up" after tat! *for those who wanna know the whole story, ask me!*

Apart from that, my office is undergoing a very very BIG change! New management is coming in to take over...Alot of old staffs are either leaving or transfering out...Its a mixed feeling...The whole level is going to expand so that more desk can fit in, more ppl can fit in and of coz more work to fit in! Good for me, I m going to sit w my division ppl & I m not longer sitting w the gal i mentioned above...Bad part of it, I am going to have a smaller desk & worst of all i m going to sit so near to my BOSS!!!

Alot is happening on the work side recently...i wonder if i can catch up w it...heez =)
Time to think about my studies side le...i had put it on hold for a year now...n i guess i wanna get back to school soon! Sometimes its silly to say i miss studying, chiong-ing project and all those money-less days! NMH has been asking me about what i wanna do and complete this year! 2010! haha Time for some planning!!! =D

break-OUT!

I m tired...i m in a mess!
life now is completely out of control and life ahead is so unclear...
i cant make simple decision for myself coz i am afraid...yet i got so many decisions i've got to make sooner or later...

I need a break! jus even for awhile, i'll be happy enough! A confirmed holiday was postponed, a upcoming holiday is being plan! i so look forward to it!

Aside from that, I am going to take a BIG change in my room! Cast away all unwanted, and put in brand new! Alot said it's a silly try..but i hope this will be successful!

This part is for huisan: I know things r getting out of control for u too! it happens...not only now, but future too! Tats where we learn n grow up, didt we? things often happen in a way we least expected it, n tata! it caught us off guard! Ganbatte! for i m sure u will be able to get thru all these...didt i did so too..if its tough on ur own, rmb there's always us! always rmb *仨人*!
*Cry with someone. It more healing than crying alone*

Breakaway!
Let's make 2010 a good good one!