the end of our 2 & a half yrs relationship...
i m letting it go finally...thou i dun even kw if i reli can...i m still loving him deeply...but i didt kw i wasnt a good gf...since dunno when, i hav been stressing him..thou everytime i did my best to b there for him...i wanna support him thru out his commando's life, n i did...jus supported him thru-out his final outfield in taiwan..nxt wk, will b his ord parade...its sad & heartbreaking tat nw i cant attend his ord...coz i m so proud of him...he did it! n i m sure he did a very good job...all the outfields, training and road march, he completed all! there r many more things tat i haven got a chance to tell him...so many things tat i will never get the chance to say it to him anymore...yet i hope deep inside him, he knew wat i m going to say...we r going our own ways, but i will still support him whenever he needs it.. this 2 & a half yrs was wonderful...we visited almost all de attractions in singapore and even went to genting [i tt we will be able to travel again..but..=( ]...we had fun, laughter, joy as well as some silly moments too..n of coz we do hav sad and angry times...silly mi, to always tt tat it will b fine as long as we hav each other...till todae tat i realise, it onli make things worst...it reli tear mi into pieces when i learnt the truth...but i m grateful tat he let mi kw all this...i dunno if i reli did a bad job as a gf...i did try my very best and had put in all my effort...i guess tat y i cant seem to let go...now tat we r friends, i hope he feels happier..at least free-er from mi...nobody will let go to the one u love deeply...yet i hav to, coz i lost the key to his heart...tats de most hurtful part ba...u love someone so deeply yet u cant do tat anymore...
17 oct...a day tat i will rmb forever...i'll keep these beautiful memories tat u hav given mi, deep inside my heart...thanks alot for everything...i hope u did truely feels my love to u..for i reli did all my best...
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